Where did I go, what did I do
How could this have meant nothing?
I tried, what more could I have done?
I could have fixed it, could have put it right
But all I did was run.
I ran in circles around my troubles
Avoiding it, wishing it gone.
What was said had no meaning,
The feeling gone never to return.
I convinced myself I was somebody
When i will always be a shadow
Hidden and forgotten, there but ignored
I stare at the wall imagining a smiling girl
With long dark hair dancing with you
Imagining the sadness and self-consciousness fall away
Leaving behind a joyful confident person.
I walk to a mirror and try to smile
It seams